Failure

I've been feeling so useless since I have common sense that it's just came to the point of being pathetic. I've failed to and so hard. I feel that my minuscule place in live has been reducing little by little with time. Finding the desire to be anything useful in subjects or portraying myself being part of a bigger scene in life has reduced to nothing. I hate this. I want it all but yet I want nothing. I'm afraid that all my burden and all that I've carried all this years and the new things that have hit me certainly have found the way to make me feel less of a person. I even sometimes fear of what I may or not may become that I just wish to die soon and go to the nothing so that I stop being hurt and hurt the ones I love.